puts a smile on my face,

it was real nice of you to spend some of your time with me, i truly appreciate it.

i really enjoy your company and having you there to talk to, thanks.

Take into consideration, Tuesdays

my oh my, its been quite a while. so much has happened in the years we have known each other.

through it all, we have still have managed to keep that fire alive between us. it has been hella crazy, and i sincerely apologize for the bracelet, i know, i feel extremely guilty, but hey, its in the past and its over. so so so crazy, what time has done for the both of us. it has done good and it has done bad. but for the most part, i am really glad how it all resulted. here we are, just not to long ago, as a matter a fact, just a couple minutes ago, enjoying each others company. i find it kinda insane how we both pulled through everything that has happened to us. but whats not insane, is how you were the only good that happened throughout all of the bad. out of all the ten, it just so happened, that you were the only one who kept in touch, who really mattered, who i could never forget, who really cared, who really stayed, and who really shouldnt be part of the ten, because your arent like them. you truly are something special, a real blessing i would say, because you were who you truly were, for the most part. haha you truly were you, no matter how bad you were to me, or were a jerk, or treated me bad, i knew, that you had a heart. A heart that would reign supreme over all the others. you arent a number like the others, you are a girl who i can truly say was one of the best. wait, not one of the best, because none were that great haha. you are the best! haha. anyways, you needa find that old poem sitting in one of those boxes of yours! so you can compare it with the hot fiyahhhh i am about to say about you, to you, and for you.

PARA TU,

on and on its like,

on and on its like,

its like, we got that heart,

that REAL connection.

here we go and go

on our own direction.

furthermore,

there is no question.

of how we end up together

with more progression. (meaning to the next step)

you see, you in my life

is truly a blessing

all and all there is

no distressing.

but like going to church,

there is more confessing.

up above, from heaven

i dont need to wish for you

at 11:11.

open 24 hours im here for you,

like 7-11 (i know pretty corny)

like a love bug

"called you for the first time yesterday"

but you left me with so much to say

speechless i was, getting you on the phone

but since 09' you are well known

here were are both keeping in touch

and more grown

theres no caution here,

no need to put out the cones

just living are lives on our own

and being there for each other is sometimes thrown

but when it really matters, we take no time to postpone

even when we are gone.

credits to akon

"Girl I know, mistakes were made between us two,

and we showed,
ourselves that night, even said somethings weren't true,
why'd you go?
and haven't seen my girl since then,
why can't it be the way it was,
cause you were my Homie, lover, and friend... "

till the end,

will we remain close.

and till now, does that bond between us grow.

you better not be out, like dem hoes

cus those hoes, be out like dem dirty clothes,

they aint coming inside when it snows

they be stayin out,

cause they bad like dem stinky toes

haha enough of those gay rap flows

and as typical as this saying goes,

"i will stop being there for you, till the death of this rose"

(i give you a fake rose)

i suppose now, will this decompose

but remember what this says

because all thats said here, is what my heart shows

IT HAS BEEN A WHILE

i havent done these in a really really long time. i guess this was good before, because i was able to get stuff off my chest. but now, i look at this, and realize ive matured. mainly because i am more of a catholic than i was before. as well as, no more slacking off and getting school work done. i hope to achieve straight A's for once. i wouldnt consider myself a bad student, its just that years before i just was lazy and didnt seem to care. but its all good, cause now i tend to look in the present time instead of the past time. life has been really good, my faith i believe, has gotten stronger. im really content with my life right now. despite the changes, i am happy where i am at right now, and truly thankful to GOD. cause GOD is number 1 forever and always.

changing.

summer has been really great so far. haha but i gotta admit, i have changed. its defintely my faith that has changed me, and also my inner self. i saw, that i needa be more outgoing haha and i suppose nicer. i shouldnt take things for granted. ive realized that right now, everything is coming together. i feel like a better person than i was before. cause honestly right now, my number one policy is quality.
the word quality explains itself and all. anyways this morning has started great. im getting my money today, haha shiet. finally. but seriously, life isnt all about money. tomorrow has a lot coming for me, itll be the best day ever, i can guarantee that. haha. i cant wait for tomorrow, just thinking about it makes me happy. haha. well i needa finish my breakfast. peaceeee

at ease.

haha yes, good sleep the past nights. haha what a relief. good things have been happening one after the other. haha im happy and great. i thank God for he has rescued me. lifes great. love life, haha thats a secret. overall. im happy, im good, im smiling. haha yes!

describe...

life right now is pretty decent. im happy and good most of the times, but lately days have been boring. i just want a great summer. a summer where you are barely home and happy every second. recently i havent had much sleep, i want to have a great night sleep for once. this week i have been sleeping about 6 hours or 4 hours a day. its been pissing me off, and always before im ready to sleep, i start thinking and thinking. im guessing the lack of sleep, has been from me overthinking. i dont know how to stop it. i just need to have days at ease and days where i needa be super tired, so i can finally have a great night sleep. before these past weeks, things werent going my way, but like magic, i started praying and talking to God. he has rescued me and has made me happier and happier. id like to thank him right now.

nothing amazes me anymore.

idk what to believe anymore. im not depressed or stressed, im just out of place right now.